I'd rather leave....

Dati...

The hardest thing I've ever done is keep believing
There's someone in this crazy world for me
The way that people come and go through temporary lives
My chance could come and I might never know

I used to say "No promises, let's keep it simple"
But freedom only helps you say goodbye
It took a while for me to learn that nothing comes for free
The price I paid is high enough for me

* I know I need to be in love
I know I've wasted too much time
I know I ask perfection of a quite imperfect world

And fool enough to think that's what I'll find

+ So here I am with pockets full of good intentions
But none of them will comfort me tonight
I'm wide awake at 4 a.m. without a friend in sight
I'm hanging on a hope but I'm all right

Pero....

I'd rather leave while i'm in love

I'd rather leave while i'm in love
while I still believe the meaning of the word
I'll keep my dreams and just pretend
that you and I are never gonna end

Too many times I've seen
the rose die on the vine
somebody's heart gets broken
usually it's mine
I don't want to take the chance
of being hurt again
and you and I can't say good-bye

So if you wake and find me gone
oh baby carry you see I need my
fantasy I still believe it's best
to leave while I'm in love

Too many times I've seen
the rose die on the vine
somebody's heart gets broken usually
It's mine I don't want to take
the chance of being hurt again
and you and I can't say good-bye

So if you wake and find me gone
oh baby carry on you see I need my
fantasy I still believe it's best to
leave while I'm in love I still believe
It's best to leave while I'm in love

Sabi ko dati, being in love is the happiest moment of life...
Sumaya naman ako.. After five years eto meju namanhid na.. Hindin naman ako makakaget-over sa huling taong minahal ko..

Ewan.. Binuksan ko ba ulit after five years?
Grabe...
Simula nitong holy week. Nagsimula ng lhat..

Na dapat para sa isang tao ko paglalaanan..
Nakakainis kasi magkakapangalan pa kami..

Pero mas pinili ko sya.

Kasi.. Naramdaman ko..

Naramdaman kong mahalaga sya.
Naramdaman kong mahalaga pala ko sa kanya.
At karapat dapat pala akong pahalagahan.
Hindi ko alam. Palagi lang naman akong inaabuso.

Parepareho naman sila..
Pero syempre, hindi mo mamahalin ang isang tao kung hindi mo sasabihing...

IBA SYA...

Iba sya.
Pero iba nga sya.
Kasi matanda sya sakin ng 9 yrs..
Nakakintindi. Nakakaaunawa. Hindi nakakabagot. Maraming alam sa buhay. Dahil NAPAGDAANAN NA NYA..

Shet..
Di ko kaya..
Hindi pwede.. Kasi..
May srili na syang buhay..


Kung kelan nakahanap na ko ng gaya nya..
HINDI PA RIN PWEDE..
KASI..

HINDI NA SYA PWEDE..

Ang Daddy ko..

Daddy na...

Dahil I was torn between my profession and my emotion... Ewan..
At naasar pa ko dahil nagtiwala ako sa ga maling tao. Kung kanikanino ko nagbubukas ng buhay ko. Masyado kasi akong Gullible. Kaya ayun.. Ako yung napapahamak.. AKO YUNG NAWAWALAN. Buti sana kung maibabalik..

We're almost there..
NANDUN NA KO EH.
MUNTIK NANG MAABOT ANG LANGIT..

Mararanasan ko na rin lahat ng first's first.
YUNG TOTOO NAMAN..
YUNG DI LANG AKO...
YUNG KAHIT ALM MONG KONTI LANG PERO...
...WALANG LOKOHAN...
NA GAYA NG NARARANASAN KO PALAGI SA IBANG MAGKAKATULAD NA LALAKI. SA ISANG IGLAP LANG...

NAWALA!!!

NAWALA!!!

NAWALA!!!

NAWALA!!!

NAWALA NA!!!!


Siguro mamamatay muna ko sa ilang linggo..
Sana pagbalik ko.. Wala na rin..

Wala na rin akong pakiramdam...
Ang lungkot...