I need a hero!

Haaayyy...
(Caution: Bawal mangorek ng Grammar!)

Four years ago, I found myself excited being a bachelor or a bachelorette. Coz I know that I'll be more responsible if I already got my diploma. But before I marched in not on march but on december, burden had already came in my way..
I'm not the head of the family but the youngest among Tabason siblings...
Life is unfair! Everybody knows it, like my stand in life.. I was the breadwinner of the family. God!! How will I able to do it?? Can I?
Pressure is always on me even during my last days in school. With an imaginary contract, I was surprised that I have already signed it. The consensus of my Breadwinner-ship in the family.
I really dunno why am I the chosen one. It's a very tough role I have to portray eversince I started acting on performances during my theater days. But, do I have a choice? Even if I do, I can't hardly take that my family will eat a tablespoon of salt three-times-a-day. I really can't imagine..
I was like a hero in a stereo-typical fantasy story. Where everybody has big expectation for you. When trouble comes on anybody's way THEN A HERO COMES ALONG, and he or she defend the justice for those who were oppressed, when he put out his laser sword the enemies will be defeated then he waits for another enemy to kill to stop the problem of the story. And when he killed the mothership, that's the end of the story..
Well IT'S JUST A FANTASY IT'S NOT THE REAL THING.
The real thing is this..
Where I normally woke up at 1 PM, and the 5AMs and 6AMs were all gone.
I usually had 10 hrs of sleep, and the power-napping is over.
And the INSOMNIAC is here again..

Wahh!!
Those sleepless night I've missed and the exhausting days were all over. This is my normal life! Where I am no busy!
 No early call times, no daily duties, no pressure, no boss of the bosses, no transporting each and everyday, no audience priming, no rural area-busting, no cute boys, no auras, no flings, no cellmates... THOSE DAYS ARE GONE!!
After my graduation, I feel like I was destined to work on this company. The company that I dreamed to work into. And I'm the lucky ones who were given the opportunity to be trained inside the Network's Building. Fresh Grad.. Excited and willing to give up everything just for this. But after the 6-month-training, no salary, just allowance for the last two months..and my family again is hoping
 for me TWO BRING THE BACON. But I haven't.
Still I bear with that kind of set up.. And after 6months I was transferred to other department which I cherished for 9 months.. good salary.. good people.. best department.. which I really enjoyed working with.. then the things have changed. Out of desperation I accepted the opportunity of the last company I've been with.. Best co-workers (that had already resigned).. Best system (Tsk Tsk), and most of all... Best salary (Vomit)..
Out of desperetion, lack of choice.
Where's my choice??? WHERE IS MY DREAM COMPANY I'M WISHING EVERSINCEE I WAS A KID? WHAT ABOUT ME???

The burden, the pressure, the expectation, and the starvation  of my family is digging me out..
I NEED A HERO in the end of this line!

Where's my hero?
He has some responsibilities.. Where consequences had parted us.. Huhu..
I need someone to hug me, to wipe my tears.. Where are you my Hero????



Save me please?